Drug Trip: Amphetamines Day 05 & 06

See Drug Trip Introduction to learn more about my medically-induced journey of self-discovery.

Whelp, I didn't sleep all night long. My heart is still pounding. I thought it might have been mania but I am not tired or hungry when I am manic, and right now I could eat a cow and sleep for days. It is 11am and I crawled into bed around 4 am, hoping to catch the sleepy time train. I guess it's too early in my experiment to be taking a full tablet. I am going to try and sleep now.

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I woke up around 3 pm and was still feeling lots of things all day long so I didn't bother taking medication since it wouldn't have helped me to focus on anything since my emotions preoccupied my brain. Instead I resorted to distracting myself with games until it came time to go out with a friend around 8pm.

I took a single pill to see how I would react during a concert and a bunch of strangers and all I did was focus really hard on the music. Didn't really interact very well with people. It wasn't as fun, and I wasn't as fun and spontaneous as I usually was. Would not recommend taking medication during concerts. I was much better once the medication wore off.

I stayed up pretty late, until 4 am, and I had to go somewhere by 10 am. I was anxiously rolling around trying to sleep and had to cancel my plans since my body absolutely would not let me leave the bed. I felt exhausted, I felt hungry, I felt pitiful and my heartbeat was still pretty crazy. I felt on but not functional. It was extremely distrssing to me to know that I am not eating enough and my sleeping is almost completely destroyed. I vow to only take Amphetamines when I am sitting down and studying, and doing so for four hours at the very least.

I dozed off and slept until 5 pm. My roomies took me grocery shopping and now it is 9 pm and they've set up to play an elaborate board game. I am going to try taking a single pill to focus on studying for the FSOT for a bit. This means I will be up until 1am at the very least. I should try staying up all day tomorrow so I can try to get my schedule back on track. 

Time seems to slow down when I am on stimulants, or at least my brain and body are going faster. Usually I feel like I can't keep track of time and that I am moving too slowly or doing too many things that cause time to pass quickly. Since childhood I can remember feeling time speed up each year until in my adult life I should just assume that even though I am ready to leave the house, it will take me another 5 minutes to leave the door. On stimulants however I leave the house in record time. I am able to put things away faster than I estimated. I get through tasks efficiently. It makes me really happy to be able to do that.